A Dad's Blog

I have to say, with less than 2 weeks to go before our due date, I really do have mixed feelings right now.  No, nothing bad or anti baby.  Thats the good part.  I feel nothing but joy, excitement and anticipation about having our daughter, meeting her and having the responsibility for looking after her, protecting her and guiding her so she becomes a beautiful young woman.

But I have to admit, I’m feeling the pressure a bit.  I’ve have that “knot” feeling you get when you are really under the pump at work.  I have been trying to figure out why, and I think I can pinpoint 3 reasons

• There is the financial pressure.  After spending all that money on baby stuff, I feel a bit under pressure knowing I need to battle to get those credit cards back under control, all the while losing our second income.
• I feel a little bit “taken for granted” at this end of the pregnancy.  I think maybe that sometimes the extra latitude I’ve given my partner, to help her be happy and positive throughout the pregnancy, may have been taken as an invitation to ”abuse the privilage” so to speak
• And obviously this close to the birth, seeing how vulnerable both my favorite girls are, there is the natural inclination to worry, hover, and be overly protective.

It can weigh you down a bit after a while.  I’ve found its really important at this stage for me, to have an outlet to work that knot out of my chest.  A run or a surf has worked for me.  But I’m exercising everyday now…